Who's The Boss?

No, I am not talking about the T.V. show with Tony Danza. I am talking about the phrase that kept repeating through my head as I was emerging from sleep this morning. Seems to me that either my brain or my spirit, or a combination of the two, was asking to me make a choice as to who would be the boss of my life today...of my food choices in particular.

Well, since I resigned from the position a couple of days ago, I will say that once again, today the Lord is the boss. I guess it is a reminder to me that each and every day I have to choose whom it is that I will serve. I may have given things over to the Lord in the past, but each morning it becomes a choice all over again who will be in charge.

Joshua 24: 15 says, "And if it seems evil to you to serve the Lord, choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods which your fathers served on the other side of the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you dwell; but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." In this case I have a choice to either serve the Lord who actually knows what He is doing and has a plan for my victory in this area of my life, or I can serve the "god" of my belly. I have a picture in mind of a Buddha statue at a Chinese restaurant. He may look happy, but he certainly doesn't look healthy. This is really a no brainer, though it will take considerable effort and self control to serve the upper case "G" God as opposed to the lower case "god". You see the god of my belly has been used to being in charge and it isn't terribly thrilled with the demotion.

Another picture comes to mind. It is a picture of my office. I am at the front desk and I am standing behind one of my staff who is having a technical issue with the computer. It is curious to me how I have become the go-to person for computer problems at the office. I have no formal training. Perhaps it is just that I have made more mistakes on the computer that I have had to fix than others in the office. Any way, back to the picture in my head. In the picture I am giving my employee verbal direction as to what to do. I do that for a very short period of time before I find myself asking her to give up her chair so I can sit down at the computer and do it myself. In that instance I am not agitated with her, instead I just feel I can do it faster myself. So, in the interest of time I nudge my way in and fix the problem.

It seems I do the same thing with the Lord. I may give Him the throne in the morning, but at some point during the day He may be going too slow for my liking or He may not be listening to my advice on how He should fix my problem, and I boot Him off of the throne so I can fix it myself. It is truly rather pathetic. Why in the world would I think that I know better than God about how to fix this problem? Yet I do it over an over again...day in and day out. How insulting it is to God and how arrogant it is of me. Forgive me, Lord!

Even on this issue I need your help, Lord. John 15:5 (Amplified Bible) says, "I am the Vine; you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in him bears much (abundant) fruit. However, apart from Me [cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing." Apart from you I can do nothing, Lord. Please show me before I am about to nudge you out of the throne. I do not belong there. Please strengthen me to "be still and know that 'you' are God"...not me. That throne of yours is way too big for this little three-year-old.